Articles by Gary Roe

Why am I Still Here?

Why am I here?This loss has shattered my world and my illusions.I was moving, but I’m not sure I was going anywhere.My questions are larger and deeper now.Why are we here? What is this all about?Why am I here? What’s my purpose? Sir William Wallace reportedly once...

People I Counted on Disappeared

People I counted on disappeared.Everyone was supportive at first.Then, poof. No calls. No emails. No texts.What happened?I feel abandoned.Where did everyone go? People don’t know what to do with grief. This is strange considering we all deal with loss along the way....

How to Find Hope While Grieving

I’m sad and distraught. I’m angry and frustrated. My world has become dark. It’s almost as if hope has departed somehow. How can I find hope again? When a close, painful loss strikes, a domino effect of change begins. The initial loss spawns many others. Like ocean...

Where is God in all this grief?

Where is God in all this? Yes, I know He’s with me. He’s with everyone. He’s everywhere. He can do anything. He cares for me. I know all these things, but somehow, I don’t feel them. I wonder if I feel much of anything. I guess I’m still angry with Him. Or perhaps I...

How to Handle Emotional and Spiritual Numbness

I feel numb. I feel numb emotionally and spiritually. This should be frightening, but it’s like I can’t feel the fear - or I don’t care. I hope this gets better, because I don’t want to be like this. Is spiritual numbness a thing? Is it a part of grief? Yes, it’s...

I Don’t Know What Life Looks Like Now.

I feel confused. I know what happened. I know I miss them terribly. I know that I’m hurting, and I feel alone in my grief. But I don’t know what life looks like now. I don’t know what’s ahead. I keep trying to figure things out, but my mind ends up going in circles....

Is There Something Wrong With Me?

Where did everyone go? It seems like people are disappearing. They said they would be here for me. Where are they? Lots of promises of support, but no follow through. No calls, texts, emails. Nothing. Is there something wrong with me? Have I contracted a contagious...

I Don’t Feel Like Myself Right Now

I’m scared. All this has made me think of my own mortality. I’m going to die. We’re all going to die. None of us escapes this. That’s terrifying. And it could happen anytime, anywhere, to anyone. To me. I wonder if I’m getting paranoid. I don’t feel like myself at...

How to Deal with Spiritual Fatigue

I don’t know what to think, believe, or do. I feel like someone came along with an eraser and wiped my life clean. I feel blank, empty, and lost. I’m overwhelmed by it all and I don’t feel like I have anything left inside. I’m exhausted. Even my soul is tired. When...

How to Avoid Old, Unhealthy Habits

I can feel myself slipping backwards. The pain is driving me to old, unhealthy habits. These things promise relief, but they’re only quick fixes that never work. Afterwards, the shame and guilt invade, and I feel worse off than before. I feel stuck. Trapped. What can...