Articles by Gary Roe

Where is God in all this grief?

Where is God in all this? Yes, I know He’s with me. He’s with everyone. He’s everywhere. He can do anything. He cares for me. I know all these things, but somehow, I don’t feel them. I wonder if I feel much of anything. I guess I’m still angry with Him. Or perhaps I...

How to Handle Emotional and Spiritual Numbness

I feel numb. I feel numb emotionally and spiritually. This should be frightening, but it’s like I can’t feel the fear - or I don’t care. I hope this gets better, because I don’t want to be like this. Is spiritual numbness a thing? Is it a part of grief? Yes, it’s...

I Don’t Know What Life Looks Like Now.

I feel confused. I know what happened. I know I miss them terribly. I know that I’m hurting, and I feel alone in my grief. But I don’t know what life looks like now. I don’t know what’s ahead. I keep trying to figure things out, but my mind ends up going in circles....

Is There Something Wrong With Me?

Where did everyone go? It seems like people are disappearing. They said they would be here for me. Where are they? Lots of promises of support, but no follow through. No calls, texts, emails. Nothing. Is there something wrong with me? Have I contracted a contagious...

I Don’t Feel Like Myself Right Now

I’m scared. All this has made me think of my own mortality. I’m going to die. We’re all going to die. None of us escapes this. That’s terrifying. And it could happen anytime, anywhere, to anyone. To me. I wonder if I’m getting paranoid. I don’t feel like myself at...

How to Deal with Spiritual Fatigue

I don’t know what to think, believe, or do. I feel like someone came along with an eraser and wiped my life clean. I feel blank, empty, and lost. I’m overwhelmed by it all and I don’t feel like I have anything left inside. I’m exhausted. Even my soul is tired. When...

How to Avoid Old, Unhealthy Habits

I can feel myself slipping backwards. The pain is driving me to old, unhealthy habits. These things promise relief, but they’re only quick fixes that never work. Afterwards, the shame and guilt invade, and I feel worse off than before. I feel stuck. Trapped. What can...

How Do I Handle Panic Attacks?

I’m having panic attacks now. They’re awful and terrifying. Sometimes, I feel like I’m dying. I’m a disaster. I feel so out of control. What can I do? Panic attacks are indeed terrifying. Sadly, they tend to be common in the grief journey. Sometimes we know what the...

Surrounded, Trapped, and Outnumbered

The grief journey is challenging. Along the way, we might feel trapped, surrounded by grief. We can feel outnumbered and like the world is against us. The following is a chapter from Soul Cry: Devotional Prayers for Wounded, Grieving, and Suffering...

Is Apathy a Part of Grief?

I sigh a lot now. I find myself thinking and even saying, “Whatever.” If this can happen, if we all die, then what’s the point? Frankly, I don’t care anymore, and that scares me. Do other people experience this? Is apathy a part of grief? Most grieving hearts...