I’m scared.
All this has made me think of my own mortality.
I’m going to die. We’re all going to die. None of us escapes this.
That’s terrifying.
And it could happen anytime, anywhere, to anyone. To me.
I wonder if I’m getting paranoid.
I don’t feel like myself at all.
I hate this fear.
Am I going crazy? I know I’ve asked that before.
My heart is shaking.
Yes, the death of someone we love brings many things home to us. Our own mortality is one of them. The old saying is true: “Everyone wants to go to heaven, but no one wants to die.”
The biggest issue for most people is the feeling of uncertainty and lack of control. It’s like the proverbial carpet has been pulled out from under us. We find ourselves wondering about almost everything. Our world has been shaken, and we’re trembling inside as a result.
No, you’re not crazy. Most grieving hearts experience this.
You need reassurance. We all do. God is good at this. This is what His word and His promises are all about. He reassures us of who He is and who we are. He is our shepherd. He provides and leads. He knows our fears. He meets us in our messes.
Breathe. You are not alone. You are not crazy. You will get through this.
On my bed I remember you; I think of you
through the watches of the night. Because you
are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.
I cling to you; your right hand upholds me.
Psalm 63: 6-8
God, I’m terrified of what might happen next. I need your reassurance. I cling to you.
Excerpt from Grief Walk: Experiencing God After the Loss of a Loved One. Grief Walk is part of the God and Grief Series.
