I feel confused.
I know what happened. I know I miss them terribly.
I know that I’m hurting, and I feel alone in my grief.
But I don’t know what life looks like now.
I don’t know what’s ahead.
I keep trying to figure things out, but my mind ends up going in circles.
I’m stuck on a treadmill, and I can’t step off.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to feel.
I don’t know what to say. It seems like everything has changed.
It feels like I’m in a free fall with no safety net.
I notice I hang my head a lot. I sigh continually.
I want this to be over, but I have no idea what that means.
I’m confused.
Loss like this brings so much change with it. In some senses, it changes everything. The ripple effects are pervasive and stunning. Nothing in our lives is untouched.
Our minds try to make sense of it. Our hearts are wired for connection. Separation doesn’t compute. We know it happens,
but that doesn’t mean we can easily accept it.
You’re in uncharted territory. You’ve had other losses, but this loss is different. You’ve never been here before. The landscape is unfamiliar. You don’t know what’s coming next.
Confusion would be natural, and it is common in grief. Nothing quite makes sense the way it used to.
But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you.
Psalm 39:7
Lord, you know my confusion. I will express my thoughts, worries, and fears to you. Let me hold
nothing back. You are my hope and safety.
Excerpt from Grief Walk: Experiencing God After the Loss of a Loved One. Grief Walk is part of the God and Grief Series.
